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Original: 11/9/2008 3:52 PM
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Sunday, November 09, 2008

just one more day

 




my heart is in a few broken pieces right now. i gave myself 1 day to get over it but i guess you can't really put a limit on your emotions. she has never been anything but a friend, albeit a noisy barking one, but she was always there when you needed her, always waiting in the same spot everyday to welcome the family home, or anyone really, upon entering the house. we'd joke that if a burglar came she'd probably go up to him for some endearment instead of biting.

i think more than anything, it was a huge shock. she was so young and so healthy. except that saturday, vet said it was poisoning so injections was given without even a whimper from her and we brought her home. she was so weak but upon reaching the living room she struggled to stand up to sit on her favourite chair. then she went to sleep and never woke up. it made me wonder whether our efforts to revive her were lackluster and insufficient.

i tried being in denial but it doesn't really work. her waterbowl still sits in the same spot, along with her towel and blanket, her favourite chair worn out from the scratching; far too many memories to throw away. honestly, i don't want to experience the pain of losing someone close to my heart anymore. it's tiring and i've gone through this about 4 times in the past 3 years. i'd like to think that she's still there looking out for us. it helps makes the day more bearable. thank you guys for your love & concern, i'll be okay <3


in loving memory of joy
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